I am

I do not have to eat
I do not have to sleep
I do not have to think
I do not have to wait
I do not have to die
I do not have to run
I do not need a relationship
I do not need a computer
I do not need music
I do not need to fear
I do not need money
I do not need to move
I do not need to talk
I am not thirsty
I am not tired
I am not angry
I am not sad
I will do everything
I will do nothing
Everything is mixing
I do not need to write

006

Time constraints holding me down
Gravity on broken glass
Put together the pieces of the puzzle
You looked surprised
The doorbell rings
The reaper, the guest of honor
Stretch my time rubber band
Why is the clock frowning down
Beads of water on my back
Anticipation and sweat
1000 seconds scatter like ants
Hurriedly to the supermarkets
Rushing home
Quick go to sleep, bash your head, wake up again
Catch my tail I've never seen
Somersault to the next level
Hang myself with my own hands
I'm sick and I'm tired
I don't want to feel pain
I'm on my way to heaven
Run your fastest mile
Touch your face its melting away
You didn't anticipate that brick wall
Where's darkness and silence
Everything stands perfectly still
My vehicle so fast everything else is a blur
I don't want to hear the globe whisper
I have no patience to watch a flower grow
I'm on my way to heaven
I'm a caged animal running for my life
Won't you come and stay a while
Heaven can wait

I let the air breeze in.
Theres no relief for my fiery tongue
which is sewn to the back of my brain.
My mind slips up then it all disappears.
I want to be soft and gentle. Not so direct;
Abrasive.
Its hard to see your hot head when you are the hot head.
I am strong. I have will.
Persist and be paid. In gold?
No expectations or measurements required.
Just a comedy of a dream.
Continuous laughter.
Theres an open can of dark matter.
I'm hiding behind.

004

So if I could change, I will.
So influenced/then stand strong like an anchor.
You're allowed to be your own way: Unnatural at first glance:
Smooth out.
I've lost myself and now
I'm floating somewhere in the room.
A headscape.
The sun is on in my room.
You can easily fall back into your old skin.
Dead and decomposed.
Just when you think you've got it figured out
your train falls off its tracks.
In dreamlike fashion, it rolls downhill
and slips into the ocean
transforming into a boat.
Just when you thought you would sink.

on and off

I'm on. Hollow but buzzing.
Senses on instinct. No need for sharpness.
Just a light breeze. My knife getting sharper.
My mind is blank because I cannot see thru
the wall of the fence before me.
On the other side infinity. Fluid nylon
you can get wrapped up in.
Destiny jokingly ends at the cliff.
I have couch potato chip discipline.
Theres a thin wall between my muscle
and skin; FAT
The universe pukes me up every morning
right before I wake up.
I'm stuck on rewind.
I want to be strong and walk the narrow path,
but all I get are wide open days.
Take a walk in fields of grass where there is nothing to inhibit.
Fear is a cold breeze.
Its nothing more than a holographic energy.
I get turned off.

Let

Let go of all your fantasies.
Built up projections.
Let it all hang loose.
Let go of all your ideas
of how you think its supposed to be.
There is something on the other side
that is far more than you've ever imagined.
The scope is expansive. Ever changing.
This box crumbles.
My head can't hold the entire world.
My eyes rearrange.

The Play

Two rocks, inanimate beings somehow animated,
dance in the empty bliss of space.
And if each is free enough-
They spin around each other at super high speeds
and join into a new greater force thats sum
is greater than the parts.
Rotating once again. Recreation over and over again
infinitely complex and ever larger.
Creating and transmutation with the collision of more parts.
Curves and jagged lines. Squiggles and circles.
Everything laughing and eyes watching.
Fixing and letting go of. Perfect.........